It's A BOY!!

Boy or Girl.... I was hoping for a girl and Ben was hoping for a little boy. Only time could tell and the time was now. I was just about fifteen weeks along at our second prenatal appointment and both Ben and I were watching the monitor when Michelle had asked us if we wanted to know the sex of our baby..?? Both Ben and I looked at eachother, both thinking that it was too early but of course we wanted to know. We sat there anxiously as Michelle rotated the ultrasound wand around on my belly and then she stopped and pointed at the screen and it seemed like hours as we waited for her to speak up and then the words came out... "IT"S A BOY" she said then she followed it up with "I think" and then she said "I'm about 90% sure it's a boy, but it is a little to early to be a 100% sure." Woow a boy!! I was ecstatic, Ben was right we were having a baby boy...

My First Ultrasound

Time was flying and there was so much to get done in preparing for a baby. I had no idea of all the stresses that came along with being pregnant. First I had to call and make an appointment at The Circle Of Life and inform my gynecologist Michelle Knowles that I was pregnant and that I would love if she would follow this pregnancy and deliver my baby. Michelle was so happy for me and was honored that I had chosen for her to deliver my baby, although I couldn't imagine having anyone else doing the job since I had been with Michelle since I was sixteen. I was so anxious when I had gotten to my doctors appointment because this would be the first time that Ben and I would be able to see our baby for the first time. I will never forget the moment that I saw my baby "my little gummy bear" on the screen and I will for sure never forget the look on Ben's face as Michelle found the heartbeat of our baby and we herd it beating for the first time. What a sense of relief to see and hear my baby's heart beat, it was a very surreal experience and I can't even describe the way I was feeling in that room with my honey, peering in at our beautiful baby.
As the appointment came to an end and we left the building I was in a euphoric state, already excited for the next appointment.

After The Initial Shock...

After the initial shock and the three days of crying, there was nothing but happiness in our lives. Although Ben and I had no idea as to what was in store for us or how our world was about to be flipped upside down, we were on our toes with smiles on our faces and ready for anything. I have never seen Ben so happy, although it was probley the shock that he was experiencing, it was quite a relief to know that this is what he wanted and that we could do this. There was one thing that really stood out in my mind when I think about the first week after find out that I was pregnant and it was my parents. My parents were so supportive and they were the first to find out that I was pregnant and I remember driving up to Layton crying my eyes out scared to death of what they were going to say or think about this situation that I put myself into. For some reason when I got to my parents house, my mom standing outside the front door, I think that she could sense the distres in my voice on the phone. I got out of my car and immediately I was in tears for I couldnt look into my parent's eyes as I told them that I was pregnant. At first my dad was very upset throwing out things like marriage and what was i going to do about school being that I was so close to finishing.. All these thoughts were running through everyone's heads, but then my mom look at me and said something that I will never forget, she said "Molli this is a blessing and you and Ben love eachother very much and you can do this, you are a strong woman and you will be a great mother." From that moment on I felt a sense of relief, I had a very supportive family and a loving boyfriend, just an all around amazing support group and thats all I need to get through this lovely experience. After crying my eyes out and then feeling the sense of relief I was able to stop the tears and feel the best feeling in the world which was being overwhelmed with happiness and so in love with Ben. Just knowing that he was going to be the father of my baby and what a special gift we had received, Ben and I were closer that ever before and we were going to be a family.